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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I'm posting because I want to post my thoughts today.

Change is necessary to life. Without change there would be no progression. I am currently undergoing change in my life and

although I don't fully agree with the change, I'm trying to adapt to it. Sometimes change is hard to adapt to simply because you are

not ready for it. Sometimes you make a leap of faith and hope to God that you're doing the right thing or something that will

aid you in the future. Chances like that require (or should require) a lot of thought before making it

because you can't go backwards.

As we live and we learn, change becomes second nature and we think less and less about what we are doing. We end up taking

blind leaps and things don't always go as well as it could have gone if we had thought and planned. Recently I had a night-long

conversation with a great friend of mine (Brendyn.) If you talk to me, you'll surely know who I'm talking about. We spoke about

taking these leaps of faith and he informed me about how the experience is far greater than any payoff. I completely agreed.

You'll either be a starving artist, or someone who hates what they're doing....but you'll have money. Now this isn't

always the case of course. There are a select few who can do what they love and make

a living from it.

Many people have told me that I have an artistic/analytical mind, which is true. I

get something in my head and analyze it

along with what I think the possibly outcomes will be, and what I think the ultimate

outcome will be. It's almost as if my mind

creates a multi-verse, branching out into the different possibilities and picking

the likely one. Most of the time I'm worrying

about something that hasn't happened or won't happen.

Thanks for the chat the other day, Brendyn.


Saturday, August 28, 2010

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Internet People IRL

Before Vidcon I knew who was going to be there that I really wanted to spend a lot of time with. The people I have known for years and never got an opportunity to meet were coming and I wanted to maximize my time to be with them.

Now, let me tell you something about me. I don't buy into hype that other people follow. If I hear something about someone or some group of people, I don't usually believe it until I see it myself.

That being said, I wanted to spend time with a few people I had never met but thought I knew well. One of them I had spent time with at another gathering and I thought we were pretty close.

After meeting this group, I tried to stay close to them because I knew this weekend was IT. The only time I know I'd be able to see them.

The group took off at random times, and the conversation I ended up having with them was never over 10 minutes long. When they left I was obviously not invited and I didn't see them for most of the event. It was always the group of 3. When I saw them I tried to get the attention of my "close friends" and was ignored most of the time.

Normally this won't bug me, except for the fact that before this we had a sort of bond. One where you know the other person and enjoy their company (online.)

Now there are two types of people I met. There was this one group and then the group who I will be happy to name off!

Toriano (DJTLaC) and Nikki (psush_girl) were some of the first people I ever really talked to on Toriano and I have had our ups and downs, and periods of time where we were angry at each other (over a person) and knew that our anger would not last forever. I won't get into that story, but you can check it on his blog.

We clicked almost immediately at Vidcon. They're the same people as they are online and as fun as ever. I enjoyed meeting them and hope to see them in the future.

As for the other group...I'll keep them at arm's length. Trust is big with me, I can't trust someone who say they want to spend time with me and when the opportunity presents itself they take off and do their own thing for the whole event.

They know exactly who they are. I don't think they should be ashamed of themselves, they are who they are. Just know that people notice little things like what you did at this event.


Day 1: I woke up, did somethings around town and prepared to be gone for a few days.

I drove out to the event and found out that parking was going to be some ridic price I can't pay. So I tried to find out who could pick me up from Venice.

I was trying to make this work because Faris/Kimmi had luggage at LAX and I would have to wait an hour and a half in order to be picked up. At this point I had been driving around LA looking for parking and was exhausted. I didn't want to do anything and was going to just go on home.

My will to do anything was shot due to the frustration and rage I had developed being constantly in traffic. I was convinced to turn back and Derek would pick me up from his place. So I drove around again looking for parking in that area and it wasn't much better than LA itself. I waited, waited waited and decided to text to find out where they were.

Hadn't left yet. Again I wanted to leave and just go home but was convinced to wait it out. Eventually I got picked up, did the quick trip to LAX and we were on our way.

I got to the event and went inside only to realize I left my phone in the car. I went back with the Valet slip to collect my phone. I could have just gone with the guy to grab it since I knew where it was but Mr Can't Speak English said to stay there. I waited over 2 hours to get my phone. I missed Audrey because apparently she was leaving as I was waiting.

Things just weren't going right for me at this point. I finally got up to the room and got situated with everything but it seemed like a recipe for disaster.

After that most of the event was awesome, my lack of a pass didn't really stop me from being with everyone else due to me being AsianGlow for some of the time. I stuck with Phil/Charles for some of the time and they brought me along for some awesometastic fun.

Day 1 ended with me passed out on Dave's floor mumbling things that were hilarious according to those around me. This was the only time I got sleep at the event.

Sunday, June 20, 2010


People are disgusting.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Memories of Acting for Disney

This first picture I did for Disneyland. It was the first acting gig I actually booked when I was about 6-8. I'm unsure of my exact age. The girl next to me they casted as my sister. They actually casted a whole family for me, so it was fun walking on the Adventureland bridge with 3 strangers I knew nothing about except their names...which I don't remember anymore.

From the back of the picture it looks like I shot it in 96/97 so I was 6-8 years old. It was my first job ever, acting or otherwise.

These next pictures are from a Disney Channel shoot I got from the first shoot at Disneyland. You might have seen it but not known it but my line was "Happy Kwanzaa from Disney!" That year was the first year I celebrated Kwanzaa..mainly because I was doing a commercial for it :) I recall it playing from October through January....and the next few years it played on the Disney channel was well. Wish I was still getting syndication profits off of it...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


What moves you? Personally I have a hidden passion to act. It's been a while since I actually had a role in something where I had lines to remember and things to do. I think the last time I acted was in high school. I told myself I'd audition for 2 plays. One at my current high school and one at my former high school where I spend 2 years. I had such a passion that I prepared for my monologues and songs (they were both musicals) and auditioned. I thought I would have enough time for both IF I got the parts for both but I didn't count on it.

I got a main part in the one at my former and a supporting role and backstage tech (I knew how things operated already) so I dropped the one with the main part. I ended up doing sound tech for the one at my former and running around moving sets and props for the one I was in.

I've always been extremely torn between whether I like the Tech or the Acting. I know I need to lean in one direction but which? I don't think anyone I've met over these past few years has actually seen me act. I got bit by the bug early in life, and I need to do something about it.

Someone help me with my passion :)

I wish I lived closer

I wish I lived closer to LA. There's so much opportunity out there and I try to do as much as I can out here in the Valley but it's hard to do anything major because of the distance. Also, it would be great if Disney paid more, hah. Working 3 days a week is insane, especially since most of the shift just pays for gas.

Ever wonder why you can't do something? Some say the only thing that limits you is your imagination...But I say nay. It can be a lot more than that. Who knows...maybe I have a future in this Youtube thing. I always love to help out, but maybe someday it'll pay the bills, ha.

Soisoisoi, Later.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


Sleeping isn't as easy as it used to be; I can have my eyes closed and usually I'll fall asleep but recently I havn't been able to. I don't wanna get on Modern Warfare 2 again because I've been playing all day and many days. What remedies do you use to help get to sleep? I could take a hot bath...that's worked in the past...

Do it float

Many ask how I came up with the original idea for the "Do It Float" videos. Well I was at work and a man with designer glasses was holding them over the edge of the monorail (it's right above my attraction) and a fellow cast member and I were talking to him. Now many objects have fallen from the monorail line (baby bottles, pasafires, saliva, apple juice, chairs...) anyway I digress...but my fellow cast member said "Don't drop them" and he said "of of course not, these are [insert designer name here] I doubt they'd float. The idea was born then.

Don't go to Golden Coral with PhillyD

'Keep in mind I wrote this June 22nd, 2009. I just came across it and decided to post it after sitting on it trying to make it into a video.

So I started off going to my friend Sarah's party in LA (she actually lives in New Jersey but I digress) So I walk inside and go to where the party is and sit down where a concentrated amount of the people allI see someone lean back and see that it's sarah so I wave and she waves. I'm still looking around and someone behind me starts randomly bleeding I hear him say "oh dude check this out! hahaha" For some reason nobody really pays any attention to him and I turn around.
All I can remember was Sarah's dad makes everyone leave, don't know the reason but I start helping him lead people out and he grabs me and says"You stay" and I can't figure out why until my aunt comes in with the angriest face I've ever seen her with. She slaps me and drags me outwhere I see my dad, who she passes me on to, he smacks me and drags me out. Meanwhile I'm thinking "What in the heck is going on, this can'tbe real" Due to my suspention of disbelief interruption.
So I say a few things not even caring what it is, and I remember walking back to my car which is right down the street when this dude on a bike goes to grab me and I realize he was trying to stab me,so he turns around and starts to follow me and I actively start running, somehow outrunning him on a bike. I see him stop and turn around and the mofoaims a gun at me and is about to shoot so i start dancin western style trying to avoid getting shot. When I get back with my Dad and Aunt standingthere Sarah jumps in front and gets real close to my face and says "I need to talk to you" and I'm looking at my dad because in real lifehe would have said "No" and tried to say whatever he needed to say but I said "I'm busy" and she says "No I REALLY need to talk to you" so Isay okay and follow her back to the Apartment/Hotel type building. She explains to me that someone was stabbed inside and theres a lot of blood(Let me remind you, there was someone who spontaneously bled earlier) so at that point I just said "Oh no, he just started bleeding"Seriously?! I said that?! yeah, I got dumb in a segment of this dream.
Jump cut to the next dream, I'm watching PhillyD on blogtv and he calls me, so I talk to him on the phone about producers to something thatI'm involved in or something, and he says "LETS GET SOMETHING TO EAT!" and I say sure. Suddenly Hulk Hogan says "HOW ABOUT GOLDEN CORRAL?!"Now at this point I have no idea why I was in Hulk Hogan's house or how Hulf Hogan knew Phil but we were going to go to Golden Corral. So IFinish this sandwich I'm eating and after that I didn't believe anything because Phil was instantly in the room and some chick in a mermaid costumestarts singing. then as we're leaving I wake up and NEVER want to dream again.
Oh and I left out the part about Star Trek but thats a completely different story.